The Science Nerd

One of my self improvement goals is to find 3 good things that I have done each day.  By coming up with new things each day my hope is to learn more about myself and build up my self worth.  You can read more about why 3 Good Things  here

  1. Walked/Ran 2 miles for the second day in a row.
  2. Getting a blog post about my three good things posted!  (=
One of my self improvement goals is to find 3 good things that I have done each day.  By coming up with new things each day my hope is to learn more about myself and build up my self worth.  You can read more about why 3 Good Things  here
  1. Prep for tomorrow was finished by 9pm instead of the usual midnight or 1am.
  2. Cleaned the family room.
  3. Did the dishes early so they weren’t left until the last thing before bed.

3 Good Things – Sept 30, 2011

September 30, 2011

One of my self improvement goals is to find 3 good things that I have done each day.  By coming up with new things each day my hope is to learn more about myself and build up my self worth.  You can read more about why 3 Good Things  here

Well, I’ve missed a few days.  The past few days I have been unable to think of three good things.  I came to the conclusion today that that is unacceptable.  If I can’t think of 3 good things about my day, I haven’t been paying attention, which is the whole reason for this journey – to pay attention.  So, here are today’s three good things.

  1. I remembered to buy a sympathy card that needs to be mailed tomorrow.
  2. I started back on my 5K training.
  3. I left food on my plate at lunch and dinner.

I started to put “I returned to recording three good things” but thought that might be a bit like cheating, so I didn’t.  But I do feel that it is a good thing that I’ve returned to focusing on the positive.

3 Good Things – Sept 25, 2011

September 25, 2011

One of my self improvement goals is to find 3 good things that I have done each day.  By coming up with new things each day my hope is to learn more about myself and build up my self worth.  You can read more about why 3 Good Things  here

  1. I did the dishes right after dinner, instead of waiting until late.
  2. I spoke to clients with confidence, answering their questions without hesitation.
  3. I practiced engaging in conversation with a number of different people instead of  trying hard to avoid and turn away from back and forth conversation.

How It Came About

September 25, 2011

After years and years of destroying a relationship by avoiding conflict, burying my head in the sand and imagining that everything was perfect I’ve decided it is time to grow up.  The relationship is not dead yet, although it has been flat-lined for quite some time.

I don’t want it to die…..I’ve never wanted it to die.  Although it’s been more important to me to avoid things than feel uncomfortable and deal with them.   So, now I am learning how to get in touch with who I am.  Learning how to keep grounded in reality instead of off in some fantasy land.

I started this journey by taking a personality test…..it is called the Enneagram Test. I discovered through this test that I am a Type 9.  After reading what that meant, I was shocked!  I have never taken any sort of test or quiz that pegged me so perfectly.  I know this probably won’t be true for everyone, but it really worked for me.

I’m sure I will go into detail on Type 9 traits as this blog continues but here is a brief overview -

Healthy Type 9 - Deeply receptive, accepting, unselfconscious, emotionally stable and serene. Trusting of self and others, at ease with self and life, innocent and simple. Patient, unpretentious, good-natured, genuinely nice people.

Unhealthy Type 9 - Can be highly repressed, undeveloped, and ineffectual. Feel incapable of facing problems: become obstinate, dissociating self from all conflicts. Neglectful and dangerous to others.  Wanting to block out of awareness anything that could affect, them, they dissociate so much that they eventually cannot function: numb, depersonalized.

Unfortunately I am deeply in the unhealthy section.  It’s dangerous to me and others.  So, I have decided to work my way out.  The ways I am trying to do that is to concentrate and focus on everything that happens.  Stop the daydreaming, and live in the real world.  Which might seem silly, but I am a master at daydreaming…..my brain is always somewhere else.

I know it will be hard, and I’m not expecting perfection but I am somewhat looking forward to the challenge.  And saving a relationship that means the world to me fortunate byproduct.  Because I can’t make this transformation for someone else.. I have to do it for me.

I am keeping this blog as a journal of my progress.  By making it public, there is always the chance that it will help someone else on their journey as well.


3 Good Things – Sept 24, 2011

September 24, 2011

One of my self improvement goals is to find 3 good things that I have done each day.  By coming up with new things each day my hope is to learn more about myself and build up my self worth.  You can read more about why 3 Good Things  here

Here are my 3 things for today:

  1. I fixed lunch at home instead of going out.
  2. I asked someone if what I had done upset them – which is a break from the usual of just avoiding it (it hadn’t upset them, in case you were wondering)
  3. I remembered to do a load of laundry that needed to be done before it was too late.

Some days my good things might be silly, other days they will be profound.  Some will be easy to think of, others not so much.  But here’s hoping that by making myself think of the good I am doing I can lift myself up out of this nastiness that has become my pattern.

The Beginning

September 23, 2011

[hidepost=5]I am a firm believer in nothing.  Hopefully this blog will change that.  And even though I’m not sure what I will find at the end, I am excited……and admittedly scared to death.  [/hidepost]

I am 40 years old and embarking on a journey to find myself.  It is long overdue.  Hopefully, this blog, which will be a record of my thoughts, emotions, fears and joys will help me on my way.

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$5 Steak Attack

March 4, 2011

We got a call tonight from a good friend cluing us in to a great deal happening “RIGHT NOW” at Harris Teeter.  They were having a $5 Steak dinner special that included a 10 oz ribeye, a baked potato and a bag of salad, all for $5.  We hadn’t planned anything for dinner, so I hopped in the truck and drove the less than a mile distance to HT.

When I got to the meat counter it seemed that many others had also heard about the $5 steak dinner.  There were at least 12 others standing around the steaks, jockeying for position, trying to get the best cut of meat.  The butchers at HT were bringing out piles of meat as quick as they could.  I was honestly worried that a fight might break out over a free bag of salad.  I just got what I needed and moved on.

What about you?  Anyone out there ever witnessed a fight, tussle, or argument over a good deal at the grocery store?  I’d love to hear about it.