Live consciously and deliberately, with full awareness of what exactly it is you are doing and being.
I read this quote in a blog post today, and it really spoke to me. It’s something Gayle has been trying to tell me for years, and I think it’s slowly starting to sink into my thick skull. Actually, that’s not true. My head gets it, it’s my heart that has been resistant to fully embracing it.
You see, I am an ostrich – through and through. I stick my head in the sand whenever things get difficult and hope it will all just go away. And I have lived this way for the past 40 years. Let me tell you, it’s not the best way to live your life. It’s not even a good way to live your life. I can’t believe how much I’ve missed out on….
It scares me to even think about keeping my head out of the sand, but I’m working hard at focusing on the things that I will finally get to see and experience because I’m fully aware. How much better my life will be and how much I can improve the lives of those around me by noticing them and being fully aware of the impact my actions have on them.
I don’t yet have a concrete plan for living more consciously, but I’m going to start by just being interested and involved in the world around me. I’m also going to get back to blogging. It’s impossible to write if I don’t know what’s going on, so hopefully a commitment to writing every day will force me to keep up with life. I’m also going to get rid of some of those distractions that have allowed me to coast through on autopilot and ignore my thoughts. I’m turning off the radio when I drive, leaving the TV off when I’m not purposefully watching something and avoiding the fantasies that play in my head that allow me to disconnect from what is truly happening.
We will see how things improve. I don’t want to go through the next 40 years without really living.